Saturday 6 August 2022

PHPM Posting and The Value of Not Giving Up

 


Hi assalamualaikum, 

It’s been awhile. 

Currently I am in my last posting, Population Health Preventive Medicine (PHPM). Scary? I can’t deny. I thought PHPM is gonna be the lek lek posting but to my surprise, it is not. NOT AT ALL. Plus, I am one of the small group leaders and also I become the leader for program bureau, so what do I expect. I wanted to revise for my finals, but to my surprise again I am busy handling all these things and to my another surprise, I love it. I love to make myself busy with program, sleep at 3am, engaging with people. Sometimes, I do feel tired because I need to give instructions and wonder whether it’s best for others or not, yeah plus I have a meeting tomorrow. 

I visited to most of the areas in Seksyen 7 Shah Alam because there is where we need to do “community profiling”. Basically, we will go to this area, interview the representatives of that area to search any unresolved or ignored health issues, then we will make awareness regarding that issue by doing a health promotion. Wow I just summarised “community profiling”. 


I visited the B40, M40 and T20 living areas. Throughout my visitation, other than feeling amazed by the magnificent view of Shah Alam, I feel grateful. I feel grateful that actually Allah has blessed me with so many things. Allah has blessed me with a very comfortable complete house, a loving family, and friends, health, intelligence, talent and so many things. The reason why I think so is that, not so many people are that fortunate like me. Probably, I have what they don’t have and they have what I don’t have. I believe that Allah will give us something that we need and not what we want. It’s true “nikmat Allah manakah lagi yang ingin kamu dustakan”.

Because I am the group leader I also learnt about the value of not giving up. The first day of the interview, our group is the only group who didn’t manage to interview anyone. As the leader, I felt so disappointed with myself. I still remember how lethargic I was going into the class feeling like a failure. But I don’t know there’s a voice inside my head whispering that “kau bukan pengalah, doh, Sabrina, you will fight this, no matter how tiring it is”. Yeah, I fought, even though I admit that some of them asked me to stop fighting. As a result, alhamdulillah, with the help of Allah, my big boss leader, and my teammate and my housemates we did it! We managed to interview 3 important people in the Klinik Kesihatan, and that was a very huge achievement for my group as a whole. I feel grateful. Indeed, I could not do it with the help of Allah. 

Went back from Shah Alam at almost 10pm. Missing Aqil in this picture

After a tiring walk through survey

All in all, this week is so tiring. But, I am satisfied, at the same time I still feel that I am not good enough of being a leader. But I believe there’s always room for improvement. Next week is gonna be another new challenge for me. A lot of things lingers on my mind : PHPM thing, my personal issue, Medical quiz competition that I wanna participate and finals (NOOOO). 

Please pray for me. 

Sabrina Shekh. 

Sunday 21 November 2021

Random Thoughts about Life

 Hi assalamualaikum everyone, 

I am feeling demotivated lately. Probably I dwelled myself too much into my assignments, then I don’t get adequate sleep -> I wake up late -> I sleep in the morning hahahah. 

This entry is gonna be a brief one. Because I am feeling blue right now, I am gonna share with you guys a few things that I learnt randomly about life. Basically most of the ideas come from the books I have read. 

1) If you want to become the happiest person, GIVE! 

Example: what I’m doing right now. I feel rejuvenated while typing this entry :D 


2) If you want to change yourself, ACT! 

Example: if you say that you are not good at being a leader, FOR ME, affirmations like “I am a great leader” won’t help that much. Instead, when i fail being one, I will feel that I’m lying to myself. 

Now, what I did was I do / act / behave like one. What does a good leader do? So yeah, a list of things will pop up in my mind. Then, by putting those ‘things’ into action then I believe that I am a good leader. 


3) You don’t believe in yourself? Fake it until you make it! 

Example: I am struggling in having a conversation with people. Yeah, in fact, I’m still, until now. However, what I learnt was that thoughts that I’m having on my mind such as “you are awkward with people” which was basically formed because of my past / trauma, just exist inside my mind. So, yeah just act like you are the heroine of your own movieee. A five star one! 


4)  You feel sad? Accept it! Be brutally honest to yourself why

Example: I hate one of my friends. For me, she is too opinionated, bossy, too knowledgeable and overrated (HAMEK KAU HAHAHAH).  Her presence just irritate me so much. I will avoid meeting her AT ALL COST. Right now, I wrote down her name, and why I don’t like her so much on my diary. Surprisingly, it helps me a lot!! Not just her, i also wrote down a few other peoples name that I don’t think we vibe (HAHAHAHHA PEBENDA LAH KAU BUAT NI SENAH). It was such a relief after that!! I can confront her and those people. By writing down all those things, made me accept who they are. 

Another example is most of the time, I’m afraid of voicing out my opinion. In the class especially. I used to repeat the affirmation like “you are brave” and all that. Instead of feeling better, I feel so much worse because I know that’s not the truth. But, right now when I encounter the situation again, I just admit that I’m afraid of voicing out my opinion, then after that I open my microphone immediately and say exactly what’s on my mind. Amazing isn’t it?

Okeh that’s all from me! 

Bye!



Wednesday 7 August 2019

They Say

I am on my sem break, everyone so hey. This week is the 3rd week of my holiday. My daily routine would be just the same, since its a routine: wake up, ensure the house is clean, cook, do the notes, pick up my brothers & sisters in school, teach kamalia.

I love listening to the music. I always love. I have always listened to the music whilst I do the routine. These days, I decided to turn off the music & I realize one thing. I could listen to my heart, my heart actually speaks to me in various ways. That moment I realize that I have been ignoring my heart for a long time, it is hard to face the fact that I did that to myself.

These days I have been searching who is me. What I am good at. I am too aware about my weaknesses until I could not see any of my strengths. I listened to people & let them define me. I care too much what others think of me, until I realize today that I have lost myself. 

They say that "you dont look like a medical student. To be a medical student, you have to show that you are a medical student; to always be cool & serious. To always show that you are the smartest guy in the room". I say to be a medical student you dont have to show that, it is okay to be silly sometimes, but deep down inside you know you are brilliant, you know what to do with your patients. 

They say that "why do you eat & walk alone? You look lonely" I say I am just tired with people. I love to be alone. I dont feel lonely in my own company. I love to be my own company. 

They say "to be an emcee you have to do it like me, you have to do it like him". I say I cant be like him, I cant be like you, I just can be the best version of myself. 

They say pity you. "He left you & he go with another girl". I say what he does reflects who he is & not who I am. Allah knows what best for me. 

They say "text him everyday so that he knows that he is important in your life". I say I dont need all that. If he really wants to stay, he will stay. If he doesnt want to, nothing will make him stay

They say "if someone gives present during your birthday, they are the truest friends". I say I do not need that. A true friend is someone who is there for me during my hard times & he willingly to listen my endless stories.

They say "it is attractive if you can smile more often". I say I am not a robot. Sometimes world breaks me down & I feel sad & cry 

They define a beauty of a woman is based on how much likes that they got on Instagram. I define the beauty of a woman comes from the internal, based on what she does, what she serves to others, how she treats & value people. 

I have been searching myself for so damn long, until I finally find myself back today. It is such a relief. Indeed 

Dont let others define you, love. They dont know a single thing about you. What we define ourselves matter because at the end of the day, believe me its just you & yourself. & Allah. People will not be there for you. 

Sunday 12 May 2019

Medical school & me


Hi assalamualaikum,

I MEAN LIKE HIIII ASSALAMUALAIKUMMMMM,
Yaaaassss it is me, here,, writing to all of you this post.
Okay guys, let me go straight to the point, Basically, the reason why I write this entry to you guys is to share my journey as a medical student. Yup, i am 20 years old already people! Honestly, I am shocked too.

So, settle with muqaddimah pelik by sabrina, alhamdulillah. I started my journey as a medical student like 10 months ago, and yeah right now I am in semester 2. For those who are curious or first time stepping by this blog, after secondary school has ended, I continue my study in Foundation of Science, UiTM & decided to do Bachelor of Medicine & Surgery in UiTM.

The story begins with, I have been dreaming to become a doctor in my whole entire life. However, I have to face the facts that I really hate biology (yangtahujetahu). I really love mathematics. I bet that mesti some of you guys wonder, LIKE HOW?! Once you enter medical school, the first popular must ask question from a lecturer would be "korang masuk medical school because of your parents or sebab sendiri nak?" . Haaaa, then right here & right now you would be dead because soon you will know the answer for this question as the time passes. Thus, my answer for that question is it is me who wants to enter medical school, not because of my parents ask me for (they just encourage me, but i was the one who decided everything). Yeah, to make thing short, I ENTER MEDICAL SCHOOL ALBEIT I HATE BIOLOGY SO MUCH HAHAHAHA.

Guess what? I started being a medical student with being an emcee for the very first event in medical school. This one I did not predict at all. Actually I was the leader of my group for the night of kebudayaan in Hari Suai Kenal bersama Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej 2019. From that, the next day, they ask me to be the emcee for the closure of the event and yasss I think it is a good start for me.

The next part would be, joining associations!! You guys know how crazy I am during school's time: I was really active in participating co-curicullar activities. I want to do exactly the same in my degree's life. Turnout, I was selected to be a part of Medical Student Association, MESTA Exco Akademik & Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej. Guys, can you imagine, me being a part of exco akademik, I mean like SABRINA ARE YOU CRAZY, GIRL MACAM MANA NAK BAGI TUNJUK AJAR KAT ORANG, LIKE EXCO AKADEMIK? MUST BE INTELLIGENT GENIUS AF. (that was my sympathetic nervous system talking)

My medical school journey begins alhamdulillah, i can say as its planned. However,  things could be worst. I failed during the first test which was General Module 1. It was like a slap on myself since that was the first ever test in medical school, but I failed it. Can you guys imagine the way that I felt that time? Honestly, I was a bit stressed out. The thing is, you gotta be surprise, how are you gonna learn 50 topics in one test? I mean the preparation itself took me like 1 week, but is was not enough for me. I was really really really down that time. However, I told myself that "there will be no one can change you, unless yourself sabrina".

I can tell I changed 360 degree towards my perception in medical school. I think I take this course lightly at first. As a consequence, I decided to be passionate than ever every time I go to the lecture, tutorial class everyday. The struggle was real, I tell you guys. You don't even know what to answer everytime your batchmates ask whats your result.......... Everytime they ask, I would change the topic. That was one of the saddest part in my life.

Since that day, I told myself that nobody can change me, unless myself. I started to list all my weaknesses & strength, what are the obstacles for me that hinder me from getting flying color result, what are the best way of learning for me. At first, here, I thought that the way I learn is just the same like everybody else. However, once I enter medical school I realized that each one of us has our own way of learning. As a result, and thank you to Allah, my family & the strength they gave to me, I got A during final examination. Plus, I am so proud for everyone (the whole batch & to anyone who had been the same situation exactly like us). It was 150 topics approximately during finals & we did it!

"It doesnt matter where you are coming from. All that matters is where you are going" - Brian Tracy
The things that keep lingering in my mind everytime I have to go for a meeting during test week :p

Yay! Alhamdulillah for everything & right now I am in semester 2. I just done answering respiratory test & yeah about 1 month and a half to sit for another finals. 

My advice to anyone who wanted to become a medical student is once you are in here, everything is going to be change. Your life will not be the same. However, if you got your passion with you, no matter how tough the road is, nobody is going to stop you. 

I once told myself that medical school wont change a bit of my life. Little did I know, this is my life. (at first, it is hard to embrace this :') hahahhahah)

So, here are a few programs that I involved; (there are some more, but I dont have the picture in my phone)

This is not a program. My housemates were celebrating my birthday. They surprised me :'))

Exco Akademik, MESTA
We won first place during Family Day!!

JPK FAMILY!!

BAKTI SISWA : A programme under Exco Kerohanian, MESTA where we go to a village & do some activities here. We do health screening, sukaneka with orang kampung, gotong-royong, etc. One of the best thing about this programme is each one of us will be sent to family angkat! Exciting, right? 

TOBACCO RUN : A program under Free Tobacco Club where the purpose of this programme to create awareness about how dangerous tobacco is to our health. We went to UiTM Puncak Alam. This program was not just held for students, but it was opened to other people too. 

KKUS (Konvensyen Kesihatan UiTM Selangor): A program under combination of all association in UiTM Sungai Buloh. The aim is to create awareness about kanak-kanak istimewa. Very inspiring program! This program touched my heart :')

Medical Olympiad: A program under Exco Akademik, MESTA. The aim of this program is as a preparation for year 2 since they are going to sit for their pro's. A program where I was given the opportunity to be a pengarah program. I learnt a lot here. We were mainly year 1 & I am really proud of our team

DINNER YEAR 5: The most recent program I involved. My first time of being floor manager. OMG! I learnt a lot hereeeeeee&I really enjoy my work as floor manager 

Me during sem 1! 

I never thought that I belong here. It has been 10 months & I have learnt a lot. Who would have thought that I would join any program? To be one of the members to held a program? Everything that happen here is incredible. Day by day, faculty of medicine has changed me, the way I think & all. Yeah that is what happening right now. Indeed, He is a the best planner. 

Anyone who has any enquiries regarding Faculty Of Medicine, UiTM or anything, can email me yaaa :)) 

Thank you!

Saturday 11 August 2018

Recapitulation


Hai and assalamualaikum,

So here is me saying sorry for not updating the interview of upm since i had been so busy in the past few months because i wanted to spend more time with myself and relax from everything that was messing up with my head and now i am here all new and free, like those balloons ;) But hey, if you guys have any enquiries regarding to the interview of faculty of medicine, upm you guys can hit me up at sabrinashekhahmad@gmail.com !! ♥♥

I once prayed that i wanted this break to be the most meaningful holiday in my life since its five months & long & i successfully had waste the previous holidays (cuti spm & first sem break) with great laziness & useless activities. Indeed, He is the best planner. Something happened to me and it totally changed me 360 degrees. 

It was a week full of confusion & exhaustion with everything in this world. My mental, emotion & physical were weary with people & myself. I still remember how I woke up every morning. I felt useless, dumb, confused & I would say I was completely lost. That moment, I told myself "This is not you, sabrina. This is not you". I just realized one of my biggest fear is to lose myself and it was freaking scary than any horror movies I have ever watched in my entire life. 

I still remember how I pick up every pieces of myself quietly without telling anyone & i tell you guys, that moment i realized i was one of the strongest woman in world. Everyday, every morning, every single time, I would wear my smiles to hide the scars beneath my body. There is a proverb saying that "A friend in need is a friend indeed". Yeah, that moment is the moment where I found the truest friend of mine. I am beyond grateful to have them. 

One of the most quintessential things I have learned from what I had been through is; in the end of the day, you just have yourself. I remember telling myself; you have allowed yourself to get until this point, suffer through it, feel the pain. Once you have done, wake up & never look back again. I never thought I could have the strength to do all these things and for that I thank Allah. 

"The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative experience.And paradoxically, the acceptance of one's negative experience is itself a positive experience"
- The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck 

June 2018

1) Journal
I started to install an application that called as "Day One". Seriously, journal is the best platform where I often pour my heart out. It was such a relief.

2) I bought a fiction book!

Honestly, fiction book is not my cup of tea. However, as long as it involves reading, I would just grab it and read it out loud. 

3) UNINSTALL SOCIAL MEDIA
Masyaallah people, I pun terkejut! Basically, the idea of this popped in my mind once I watch one of the recommendation videos on youtube. Surprisingly, uninstalling social media was one of the best decision I have ever made. You guys should try. I found myself to live more in presence, appreciate all the moments & people in my life.

July 2018 

1)  Discover a website
Thank god, this website is really helpful. http://www.planetofsuccess.com . I often read quotes of happiness, success from this website. I found it is hard to meet the movies that is compatible with my taste, but one of the reasons I love about this website is TADAAAAAAA there is a section of inspirational movies recommendation. If you guys love based on a true story movie, or biography you guys should try! http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2016/top-inspirational-movies/

2) Watching inspirational movies
I swear watching inspirational movies is one of the ways I escape the world. By doing this, I started to gain and build a new perspective. Once you have watched, you will get wired! Like me, hehe. Here is a fact; I had to watch at least one inspirational movie a week. It really changed my life. 

3) INSTALL SOCIAL MEDIA AGAIN
Gosh, I swear this didnt help me a thing but make myself to be even worst. For that, I want to raise my hand up as the one who should be blamed for this silly decision I made. I just realized all these times, social media was one of the major reason of my unhappinesss in life. So, uninstall it again hehe. 

4) Reading a non-fiction book
The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck was my first non-fiction book and it was really good & funny. I started to realize what problems I should care about or simply just dont give a f about that. And and and yeah, I started to stop expecting anything from people. 

5) Watching motivational videos 
I started to subscribe some of the vloggers where I found they are inspiring. The first vlogger I subscribed was John Fish. One of the things I love about him is he is smart andddddd he really loves to read books. I read TSAONGAF at the instance I watched his video. 

Team Fearless & Fearless Soul . Both are my favourite. I watched at least one video from them every single morning and i could feel it changed my morning and the most important thing, my life! 

Btw, I love to listen to TEDx Talks everytime I wanna eat my lunch or dinner.

6) Doing thing that I love
Got the chance to perform again in school hahahha & it was exciting! I also join to help krs in kawad & it feels good to be back again. Our team got the first place (putera) in daerah & second place (puteri) while for negeri the boys got the third place while we girls got fifth. alhamdulillah



August 2018

1) Forgiveness
I told you guys, this is one of the hardest thing I had to do. Easy to write, easier to say, but bitter to do. It required me sheer strength of myself to do it. As a matter of fact, I learned that whenever we face a problem, the very first thing we have and wajib to do is to forgive ourselves & forgive people (even they didnt even say sorry to you). 
"Forgiving isnt something you do for someone else. Its something you do for yourself. Its saying, youre not important to have a strangehold on me. Its saying you dont get to trap me in the past. I am worthy of a future"
- Storyteller by Jodi Picoult 

2) GOALS
Setting goals every week is a super new for me but guess what? It makes my week to be more meaningful, full of purpose. One of the reasons I wake up excited every day in the morning!! 

3) Deactivate my social media
I found myself happier than ever since I uninstall them. So, to pursue the happiness more, I just deactivated them. Simply because I do not need them. No, not anymore.

I have always believed that Allah is the best planner. All these paths I took step by step I sometimes asked Allah like "why me?". I even feel like giving up, lying on my bed, feeling nothing (ok macam lagu shawn mendes). Little did I know, He has something for me. A gift.

Finally, alhamdulillah! The upu result eventually came out and yeah I was accepted to pursue my degree in faculty of medicine, uitm! I feel like crying already imagining what I had been through for all these times. It was a sweet time grieving, indeed.

"You are not what happened to you. You are what you choose to become after what happened to you" 
- Selena Gomez 

As you could see, I kind of obsessed with quotes, and yes I am really obsessed with them hahahahaha! 

For those out there, who are floundering with anything, please do not give up. It does not matter how much you fall. What matters is you get back up again. Get back up stronger! 

Wish me luck for my medical school that I am gonna attend in 2 weeks from now! ♥ 

hehehhe haaaaiiii :D 

Tuesday 29 May 2018

Interview Faculty Of Dentistry, UITM


Hai & assalamualaikum,

About 2 weeks ago, I was called by UITM to go to an interview for faculty of dentistry. So, basically this post is going to be about how do I prepare myself before I attend the interview :)

So, firstly when I received the letter (on the Internet), I carefully read all the instructions that were given on the letter so that I will not miss a thing. This is hella important before I prepare myself. The very first step I took was I make sure all the document that I have to bring on that day is completely ready (macam ic, surat beranak parents and all). But, people please do not bring your parents' original IC with you guys hahahhahaha kesian parents you kalau jadi apa2. Just bring the salinan.

Next, I opened the website of faculty of dentistry, UITM & studied a bit about the course. I was kinda lost hahahah seriously I know nothing about dentistry. I put dentistry as my fourth option. I really have no idea why did they still pick me (but, alhamdulillah). 

Realizing tons of problem that I have to face, I decided to contact this abang who once give a talk in UITM Dengkil about entering this faculty. Thanks to this abang, he really guide me since the first day I ask, until I finish the interview!

To make things short, this interview has 2 sections. 

First section: 
Kena buat origami pigeon (for 2018) but before ni ada juga batch kena buat wire bending. Tak tahu wire bending? Boleh search youtube. Origami pun sama

Second section:
THE CRUCIAL PART HAHAHHAHAHA INTERVIEW! Firstly, dont get nervous! Keep calm & relax. The must-ask (popular) questions:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF 
Explain about yourself. At this point, the interview just want to know what you can do. Based from this abang I asked, he told me to tell what talent we got. Contoh talent: pandai main gitar, menyanyi, menari, photography, and all. Then, tell them based on these hobbies, what you learn, then relate kan dengan dentistry.

WHY DO YOU CHOOSE DENTISTRY?

WHY DO YOU CHOOSE UITM?
I do a little research about faculty of dentistry, UITM. Little did I know that actually, this faculty is the biggest dental school in our country, Malaysia. So here is the article based on the website of Astro Awani. HERE 

WHY WE SHOULD CHOOSE YOU?
This part korang dah boleh angkat diri korang seatas-atasnya. Seumpama korang dilahirkan dalam dunia ni memang untuk jadi dentist! Here is one of the videos I used to refer how to answer this question. VIDEO. This video is for a job interview, but the important thing is we know how to construct the sentence. 

DALAM BAHASA MELAYU, CERITAKAN TENTANG ISU SEMASA
I still remember when I heard this question, I was like HAHAHAHHA AKU BACA NEWS DALAM ENGLISH. However, alhamdulillah even cuak, otak ni time tu juga ubah dalam bahasa Melayu hahahaha. Punya berpeluh.

TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT DENTISTRY
Basically for this question, I told them about all the unit in dentistry. HERE. I pick one of those units that I am more interested to, and tell them the details. Why am I more interested to that unit.... 

Okay last, lupa macam mana dia punya soalan, tapi lebih kurang macam ni:
SO SABRINA LET SAY LEPAS HABIS BELAJAR STILL TAK DAPAT TAWARAN JADI DENTIST, HOW WOULD YOU SURVIVE?

Okay, thats all about the interview section. 

Tips for the interview:
1) Masuk jangan lupa bagi salam, greet them properly. I usually ask them permission before sit
2) RELAX. ( I used to listen to my favourite song before I enter an interview to reduce my nervousness)
3) BE YOURSELF, Be Confident. 
4) Smile :D 

Okay, good luck everyone! All the best ♥ 

An exquisite view from top !! 

ME AND MY NEGATIVE SLOPE TUDUNG :')

TOLD YAA HE LOVES TO FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE!

HEHEHEHE GOT IT FROM DENGKIL 

My new friend, Farah!! ♥

P/S: I just went another interview at Universiti Putra Malaysia, UPM for Faculty of Medicine recently. Gonna update about it soon too. Stay tuned! 

Sunday 22 October 2017

New Phase Of Life


Hai assalamualaikum,

Yes i know i broke my word, you guys know me.

Actually, I am on my sem break for 6 weeks. I think it explains everything why do I come back.

Maybe some of you guys wondered what actually happened to me, dissapeared just in a blink of an eye, without any valid news but, i bet those bloggers who follow me on my social media. they dont feel the same way, i guess. I still keep in touch with them. Hey, nothing has changed me (except for the blog's design, its way more mature i think? :p)

I did read my chatbox, some of you guys were asking me where do I further my studies. Firstly thank you for asking, I appreciate that. So, regarding to that I choose UiTM (Universiti Teknologi Mara), Dengkil. I took Foundation In Science. I entered the university in May.

Living far away from family was very hard for me, especially it was my first time. I cried while reciting al-quran, toilet was the best platform where my tears choose to burst out i dont know why, maybe its a quiet place. Am not good in hiding feelings.

I even told myself that I can no longer live in foundation, in other words, I want to quit foundation. (I MUST BE CRAZY THAT TIME YA ALLAH). I did told ummi & cried. But you know what she said? "I know you can do it, I know you, I know my daughter", she murmured. Mom's powerful word.

I dont know how to describe how depressed I was back then. Holding people's expectation on my shoulder, forcing myself to be like everyone else, all syllabus are in english which was a super something new for me, resulting me in burnout. I lost myself.

But, alhamdulillah! :D I learn that everything needs time. Everyday, I try to adapt everything new and I keep telling myself that I can go through it. Smile is my new strength. One sentence keep rolling in my mind,

Yesterday, you told yourself you cant do it. But you did it.
To add up thing, the best thing about going to university is I get to know tons of amazing people. They are vary in personality and most of them are talented, raising up my curiousity to know more & more about them.

HOUSEMATE
These aliens know me inside out. Crazy Weird behaviour. Always pretend that Lady Gaga wants to visit Dengkil bagi ceramah agama. Pelik level dewa. We called our house as akademi lawak bcs everyone is tryhing hard to be the most pelawak in da house. 


LAB BIO & CHEMISTRY

TABLEMATE
The sweetest smile from us, Tecek & Sha ♥ 

My gal!! 
From left, Effa Tasha, Jah, Effa Rozel, Me, Syahirah.

Geng mamak roti ketuk-ketuk 
(our whatsapp group's name)

Aisyah
Lecterur's hunter partner. 
She is kind, always love her personality

Q
 My biggest scandal in class. Nothing is fishy.
He got million ways to make me annoy w him.

 Effarock! 
Love to mingle with her during free time.
She is kind & helpful.

It is undeniable that living in university is hard. Nobody told me that it is easy. Somehow, it really depends on how we get used to it, wether we want to let ourself to be swallowed up in melancholic depression or we choose to wake up & make any thing to make ourself happy. Everyday is a choice.

Wednesday 22 March 2017

Ina's SPM Result

draft since 17March2017
update 22March2017
author pemalas
tak tahu la kenapa bila dalam dewan semua org betukar jadi kelabu
ke aku yang kelabu
the power of smktpg's dewan


Hai assalamualaikum,

Semalam semua riuh dekat laman sosial daripada facebook, twitter & instagram, bahawa semalam hari keramat untuk batch 99 yang menduduki spm pada tahun 2016 untuk mengambil keputusan. Guess what? I am one of them.

So, cikgu duk pesan awal-awal suruh datang pukul 10 pagi & pakai baju kurung @ jubah. Disebabkan aku bukan lah cendekiawan berjaya yang selalu score time exam, so aku punya relax tahap 1cm/j plus aku demam teruk gila, malam tu aku meracau tah merapu apa cakap sorang2.

Aku punya relax menyebabkan aku gerak dari rumah dalam pukul 10.40 pagi. Asal nak pergi awal2 hahhahah. So masa lagi 5 minit untuk jejakkan diri kat sekolah,, kawan aku shida baharim call.

shida: "woi sab, kau kat mana do" (sakit telinga aku time tu. nasib tak pekak, dia punya high-pitched tu aku kasi 5 bintang)
aku: aku kat depan 99 lah. asal?
shida: kau dapat straight A lah sabbb! Apani kau kata masa depan kelam
aku: wehhh kau tak tipu kan? Kau prank aku ke ni! Tak yah lah memain
shida: sabb kau sorang je yg dpt straught A! 
aku: wehh tipu! (time tu air mata aku peh gila mencurah). kau dapat berapa?
shida: dah lah aku malas layan kau 
dia end call time tu jgk, bertuah punya kawan

Feeling aku time tu dalam kete, jangan cakap ah. Sebab aku kabut gila, dia ni tipu aku ke apa. Masa sampai depan dewan, walid pulak call.

walid: mana awak ni
aku: kitorang dah depan dewan
walid: awak sorang dpt straight A sabrina
aku: Ya Allah! Ye ke (betullah shida tak tipu)

Masa aku nak masuk kat dewan, peh aku tunduk je. Segan datang lambat. Ada juga yg kata tahniah. Padahal aku tak tengok lagi result aku apa. Bila masuk dewan, fuhhh gila weh orang ramai macam tin sardin. Aku terus jumpa teacher kat depan pentas & then she said:

teacher: well done, sabrina. you got A for english. (teacher nangis)
aku: thank you teacher for teaching me. thank you so much (aku lagi nangis)
seriously, aku peluk teacher dalam 2 minit. 

Bila sampai kaunter ambil result, ramai budak2 kelas aku yang cakap "wehhhh tahniah sab!!". Terharu gila. Ada juga yang kata tak nak kawan aku lepas ni. So, kitorang berbalas tumbukan. 
Masa isi borang tu, aku shaking gila. Tak tahu lah nervous sbb dah lama tak tulis atau sebab terkezutss. 


Cikgu hulur slip aku & cakap tahniah. Bila aku tengok, ya Allah, serious lah ni result aku weh :'( Biology yang aku duk menyumpah dapat B, dapat A-, alhamdulillah. Then, aku terserempak dengan cikgu tuition add mt aku, cikgu adiff. 

aku: cikgu adifffff!!! (excited gila weh) 
cikgu: haaa kamu (cikgu mcm x de perasaan je)
*cikgu pegang slip aku*
cikgu: cikgu dah agak awak dpt add mt A- (masatu cikgu tak tgk slip aku)
*lepas dah tengok aku dpt add mt A*
cikgu: kamu ambil asasi ni
aku: insyaallah, cikgu. terima kasih sbb banyak ajar saya (crying emoji)

Pasal kawan-kawan pulak, haziq tiba2 nak hantar rombongan merisik aku. Dia tak tahu ke aku sah-sah dah reject dia hahhahaha. Ramai lah yang cakap tahniah kat instagram. Daripada kawan lamaaaaa yang kau dah bertahun-tahun tak tegur, tiba-tiba tegur. Daripada kawan yang tak pernah puji kau, tiba-tiba puji. 

Bila balik rumah, bersilih ganti orang call orang tanya result aku, fuh. Aku ucaplah terima kasih especially dekat keluarga pak cik aku, amiuteh yg selalu tolong, support bagi semangat kat aku. Anak amiuteh dpt add mt A+ heheheh power betul.

Alhamdulillah. Everything was just a miracle yesterday. Bila aku bangun pagi ni, aku rasa "Lahaii aku dah ambik result spm rupanya"

Tapi, sebelum tu aku nak cerita, seriously I am not the most brilliant student in my school. I never got straight A's on ub1, ppt or even trial. I only got 7A's for trial. Once when I was form 4, I was one of top 10 student, then masuk form 5, dah kelaut. Normally, top 20 lah, (ikut yang trial punya). 

I was known as "budak yg selalu tak masuk kelas". I skipped classes for 3 month when I was form 4, teachers threw hatred on me. Those people yang selalu ikuti flow aku tahu aku terlibat dgn aktiviti koko.

Orang selalu kata aku lagi pentingkan koko drpd pelajaran. Guys, i am not. I know how to distinguish yang mana perlu kita buat, benda tu sangat penting dan yang mana kita perlu buat untuk kita rasa enjoy. Dapat tak? Sebab tu aku macam tak berapa setuju bila parents adik-adik kawad aku cakap masuk koko boleh menjejaskan pelajaran. The main point is it really depends on someone, whether he/she wanna put the academic as the priority or anything else. There is no excuses.

Lepas dapat result ni, aku punya insecurity level dia naik 110% weh. Bila aku tengok dunia, ramai lagi yang dapat straight A's. Aku rasa kerdil gila. Yang aku paling takut, expectation orang terhadap aku. Aku student yang gila extra plus ordinary XXXL. Haa nampak tak dia punya biasa tu. Bila fikir, ramai lagi weh manusia daripada sbp & mrsm, peh gila. Tengok budak sekolah aku, cukup lah. English dia berasap berkepuk-kepuk beb. So, aku memang yakin ni semua rezeki daripada Allah, tak lain tak bukan.

Aku paling bengang bila orang kata "Kak Sab boleh lah, Kak Sab pandai". Haaa aku pantang betul. Seriously, ramaaaaaiiii lagi yang pandai daripada aku dalam sekolah. Ni semua hardwork aku, hari-hari stay dekat library, buku latihan tebal dia campur 5 bijik buku teks, Ni jadual harian aku:

Awal pagi (lepas solat subuh): Belajar
9.00 pagi: Kemas rumah
12.00 tengah hari : Belajar lagi
5.00 petang : Break sebab asar (tak elok belajar time lepas asar kan, so masani aku makan & tengok tv, chill2)
8.00 malam: Belajar sampai rasa nak tidur

Bila tengok balik, macam mana life aku time nak spm, aku macam "wowwww kau robot ke apa ni sabrina". Aku ada jadual belajar aku sendiri, and aku gila stick dengan jadual belajar tu.

Alhamdulillah, semua usaha aku & family aku berbaloi ;'( terlampau banyak benda yang aku lalui rupanya fuh. Aku rasa macam nak peluk semua orang yang masih stay dalam hidup aku. Seriously, dalam keadaan ni, ramai orang merapu & fake yang datang dalam hidup aku. So, here an appreciation for those who stay.

-appreciation-

family
apa-apa pun yang jadi kat diri aku ni, dari dulu sampai sekarang, family aku orang yang akan terima aku seadanya. masa aku nak spm, benda yang buat aku terharu, ummi walid & adik2 buatkan solat hajat. Ya Allah :'( wan aku kat rumah yang tak berhenti doakan segala jenis doa untuk cucu-cucu dia, sebab bukan aku sorang yang amik spm kan. so, untuk my big family, dauds' crew yang selalu support ina. tak lupa jugak keturunan hassan & maryam. terima kasih. 

kawan
aku ada ramai kawan. tapi tak semua kawan aku rapat. so, here we go!
ija: tablemate setia aku untuk 5 tahun. baik buruk aku semua dia pegang hahhaha serious. dia ni gila setia tak pernah curang cari tablemate lain. bila dah habis sekolah macam ni, aku sedih gila sebab aku tahu susah nak cari soulmate macam dia & best listener aku pulak tu. sorry tak de gambar time haritu. 

haziq: aku ada ramai kawan nama haziq. tapi nak kenal haziq ni senang je, dia yang paling bebal sekali hahhaha. soulmate aku jugak, the only guy friend yang aku gila selesa ah. dia ni aku dah reject berapa banyak kali dah, tapi tetap tak putus asa hahahhaha. mana ada, whatever happens, you are my best bro forever! the best part about haziq, bila aku alone kat library, call je dia, mesti 15 minit terus sampai. thank you weh selalu teman aku :'( btw kepada isteri2 Haziq, dia ni kedekut tahap hidung masin! Aku bg ayat power pun dia still tak belanja aku goreng pisang.


thesotongs: ahli2 organisasi pertubuhan ni ada shida baharim, ji, chokiyo & tiqa. so 5 orang lah kan termasuk aku. haa yg baju oren tu bapak orang ye. Tiqa tak dapat datang. terima kasih guys for everything. aku benci kawan rapat dengan orang perempuan ni sebab biasanya penuh dengan busuk hati & dengki. so, specialnya korang kat situ, setakat ni aku nampak korang tak de benda tu semua. perangai pun terencat jugak macam aku. 

cikgu
ramai cikgu yang pernah ajar aku sebenarnya. so, aku nak cakap terima kasih dekat cikgu izyan sebab ajar saya fizik & explain kat saya sampai yang gelap jadi terang, cikgu azairani yang selalu bagi kepercayaan dekat saya & bagi cekelat2 yang saya suka, teacher norimah sebab teacher yang bagi saya confidence untuk tulis essay dengan feeling, cikgu arniza pernah cakap "ni bukan sabrina" masa saya dapat a sejarah masa trial, hasilnya saya dah dapat a+ ghehhehe ni sabrina tak? cikgu halini sebab selalu sabar ajar saya kalau saya tak faham something tu, ustazah aini sebab selalu bagi saya kata semangat & percaya dekat saya, cikgu rita yang sempoi gila & selalu gosip2 dengan kitorang, cikgu rosmawatiii yang banyak sabar dengan saya sebab kalau cikgu perasan kadang2 saya selalu tidur dalam kelas sebab tak tahu lah biology ni cikgu, dia macam bedtime story huhuhu, cikgu arifah yang saya rasa pehh gila ah cikgu kelakar gila, saya adore dengan cikguuu, sebab cikgu saya suka kimiaaa! terima kasih cikguuu!! 

terima kasih cikgu tuisyen saya, cikgu adiff. cikgu daripada mula-mula saya datang belajar kat kelas cikgu, saya ingat lagi, saya dapat gagal. tu la first time saya gagal dlm pelajaran. cikgu yang sabar ajar saya sampai sehari sebelum spm cikgu still menghadap saya sampai saya dah dapat add mt A. haih sedih pulak bila ingat balik hahhaha.

cikgu norliah, terima kasih sebab cikgu orang pertama yang nampak saya & appreciate kebolehan saya daripada saya form4 lagi :'( terima kasih cikgu sebab pilih saya jadi tokoh pelajar. saya sedih sebab cikgu dah tak de kat sini lagi. 

to the boys that i have loved before & people who left me
thank you.

my junior ♥ 

with behhh. the only one my chinese guy friend. 
dia ni suka sangat buli aku, nnt tersuka aku baru tahu. 

a little celebration for me from my family ♥

This is probably my last entry for this blog (?) I dont think that I will blog again. Whoever wants to ask me, just drop down your comment below or you can message me personally. I am super free to answer :)

Thursday 9 February 2017

Dapur Terbakar

Google's ( Ina tak sempat berselfie time dapur terbakar)

Hai assalamualaikum,

Alkisahnya Ina merupakan seorang ex pelajar sekolah menengah yang dulunya menduduki SPM. Hari-harinya diisi penuh dengan berada di dalam bilik. Jika dia lapar, dia akan pergi ke dapur. Dia akan keluar untuk kemas rumah sahaja. Begitulah kehidupan biasanya.

Sehinggalah......................................

Ehem, okay here is Ina, who just come back to a normal person.

Lepas SPM ni, Ummi berhajat untuk mentransformasikan Ina daripada seseorang yang tak sebegitu cukup sifat keperempuanannya kepada seseorang yang cukup sifat sebagai gadis melayu terakhir. Tinggi betul harapan Ummi dekat Ina, tu lah masalahnya.

Jadi, lepas SPM ni, kerja Ina kemas rumah, sapu rumah, mop rumah, semua kerja rumah lah, rasanya dah macam jadi pembantu rumah pun ada :') Sampai lah dengan memasak sekali Ina yang buat. Semua orang kat rumah panggil Ina orang dapur (benci gila).

Dulu kerja Ina memang belajar je. SPM katakan. Errr. So, selepas setahun tak menjengah ke dapur, bila Ina pergi dapur, adik Ina akan cakap ;

" Woiiiii tengok semua!! Kak Long pegang blender!!! "

" Lihatlah dunia!! Kak Long sedang memasak! "

" Ni Kak Long ke, hantu jelmaan dia?! "

Ya Allah, selamatkan lah aku daripada adik2 yang pelik ni

Nak dijadikan cerita, suatu hari yang sunyi buat insan yang bernama Ina, bertukar menjadi kacau bilau! Ina tengah panaskan minyak. Buat sementara waktu, Ina pergi lah potong bawang merah, & seangkatan dengannya. 

Tup tup bila Ina pandang dapur, api dah naik sampai siling rumah! Ina pun panggil lah Danish. Paling best sekali bila tengok dia tengah pakai earphone! Ina pun berhuhuhuhu je lah. 

Ina mampu menangis je masatu. Dalam kepala fikir kalau rumah terbakar ni, mati aku kena marah ummi & walid. Lepas ni, nak tinggal kat mana? Habislah Ina.

Dengan berkat Allah, akhirnya api tu reda :') Tapi masatu menggigil gila weh!! Macam trauma pun adaaaa

Alhamdulillah, langsir je yang terbakar!  T-T Kalau tak, habis ummi walid balik rumah dah terbakar hahhahaha


Kepada bakal suami saya, insyaallah rumah kita nanti tak terbakar ye hahahah. Saya dah belajar dari kesilapan. 

Bye assalamualaikum

Thursday 2 February 2017

LOOK WHO'S BACK

Hai assalamualaikum everyone!! 

Siapa rindu Ina?! Angkat tangan!! *Menyampah gila weh nak feeling artist pulak* 
Tangan jatuh.

So, cerita dia SPM habis bulan November 2016. Ni dah February 2017. Cerita panjang dia malas. Cerita pendek dia, malas jugak. 

Maybe a hi from you guys?

"Ina, macam mana SPM? Okay?"
"SPM was fine *muka tenang gila*"
"But I wasnt! How dare you ask me that question?! Shut up"
Sorry, owner blog ni emo gila lepas habis jawab SPM. 

Disebabkan hidup Ina semakin cerah hari demi hari tanpa sekelumit gangguan daripada suara-suara buku latihan, so Ina decide untuk taburkan rasa kegembiraan Ina dalam blog ni. Siapa perasan Ina dah tukar design blogggggg??? Siapa tak perasan, ketiak dia busuk.

Well, I am no longer a pinky woman you guyssss :p Tapi, Ina kena admit yang blog ni tak boleh hidup tanpa warna pink. Tapi, disebabkan rasa bertimbang rasa tu menebal dalam diri, Ina just bayangkan kalau seorang lelaki melangkah ke blog Ina. Hm? Nak ke dia sentuh & gerakkan cursor dia lepastu & harungi lautan yang penuh ke-pink-an sangat? 

Ina private blog Ina sebelum ni untuk beberapa minggu untuk edit blog. Kira nak bagi suprise lah *menyampah angat*. Tiba-tiba, berkat nak suprise kan orang, bertukar jadi bala. Ina punya follower widget rosakkkk!!!!! Bayangkanlah, kau dah gigih berpenat lelah & bersengkang mata edit blog, tiba-tiba follower widget rosakkkkk


Ina tekan Ctrl+F cari apa yang tak kena *gaya ala agent CIA selesaikan masalah*. Ina harungi pulau-pulauan yang penuh dengan kod yang tahapehape. Sampai satu tahap, Ina buat keputusan untuk delete semua kod & gantikan dengan original template. And suprise!! Follower widget Ina still rosakk, Masatu, Ina cuma boleh berhehehehehehehe je ;) 

Lepas Ina siap edit, Ina search dan buat pemerhatian dengan kes pelik yang Ina alami ni. Ina search google. Tapi semuanya dusta. Ina dah nekad nak contact blogger-blogger otai dengan kes fobia yang Ina alami ni (Woih siapa tak fobia wehh. Kalau tak fobia, Ina bagi dia singgit). Then, Ina unprivate blog.. 

rupa-rupanya
Rupa-rupanya
RUPA-RUPANYA
RUPA-RUPANYA
RUPA-RUPANYA

Follower widget memang tak berfungsi kalau kita uprivate blog. Masa tu, sambil smirking, Ina hanya mampu berkata "Mission Complete (emoji pakai cermin mata hitam)"


Maka, nak dijadikan cerita ni lebih menarik, Ina dengan bangganya telah hilang semua bloglist, sebahagian je jumpa T-T. Jadi, Ina nak minta tolong siapa yang dulu dia dalam bloglist Ina, tolong comment or letak link dalam chat box.. Ina akan letak korang punya link balik.. ;)) 

Bye, assalamualaikum. 

p/s: I went to SK Kampong Endah to teach them kawad! I guess this is the last time I wear krs uniform. How sad ;'( 

                                  ......Me ft awkwardness.....

Ok dah tatatititutu

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