Medical school & me

Hi assalamualaikum,

I MEAN LIKE HIIII ASSALAMUALAIKUMMMMM,
Yaaaassss it is me, here,, writing to all of you this post.
Okay guys, let me go straight to the point, Basically, the reason why I write this entry to you guys is to share my journey as a medical student. Yup, i am 20 years old already people! Honestly, I am shocked too.

So, settle with muqaddimah pelik by sabrina, alhamdulillah. I started my journey as a medical student like 10 months ago, and yeah right now I am in semester 2. For those who are curious or first time stepping by this blog, after secondary school has ended, I continue my study in Foundation of Science, UiTM & decided to do Bachelor of Medicine & Surgery in UiTM.

The story begins with, I have been dreaming to become a doctor in my whole entire life. However, I have to face the facts that I really hate biology (yangtahujetahu). I really love mathematics. I bet that mesti some of you guys wonder, LIKE HOW?! Once you enter medical school, the first popular must ask question from a lecturer would be "korang masuk medical school because of your parents or sebab sendiri nak?" . Haaaa, then right here & right now you would be dead because soon you will know the answer for this question as the time passes. Thus, my answer for that question is it is me who wants to enter medical school, not because of my parents ask me for (they just encourage me, but i was the one who decided everything). Yeah, to make thing short, I ENTER MEDICAL SCHOOL ALBEIT I HATE BIOLOGY SO MUCH HAHAHAHA.

Guess what? I started being a medical student with being an emcee for the very first event in medical school. This one I did not predict at all. Actually I was the leader of my group for the night of kebudayaan in Hari Suai Kenal bersama Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej 2019. From that, the next day, they ask me to be the emcee for the closure of the event and yasss I think it is a good start for me.

The next part would be, joining associations!! You guys know how crazy I am during school's time: I was really active in participating co-curicullar activities. I want to do exactly the same in my degree's life. Turnout, I was selected to be a part of Medical Student Association, MESTA Exco Akademik & Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej. Guys, can you imagine, me being a part of exco akademik, I mean like SABRINA ARE YOU CRAZY, GIRL MACAM MANA NAK BAGI TUNJUK AJAR KAT ORANG, LIKE EXCO AKADEMIK? MUST BE INTELLIGENT GENIUS AF. (that was my sympathetic nervous system talking)

My medical school journey begins alhamdulillah, i can say as its planned. However,  things could be worst. I failed during the first test which was General Module 1. It was like a slap on myself since that was the first ever test in medical school, but I failed it. Can you guys imagine the way that I felt that time? Honestly, I was a bit stressed out. The thing is, you gotta be surprise, how are you gonna learn 50 topics in one test? I mean the preparation itself took me like 1 week, but is was not enough for me. I was really really really down that time. However, I told myself that "there will be no one can change you, unless yourself sabrina".

I can tell I changed 360 degree towards my perception in medical school. I think I take this course lightly at first. As a consequence, I decided to be passionate than ever every time I go to the lecture, tutorial class everyday. The struggle was real, I tell you guys. You don't even know what to answer everytime your batchmates ask whats your result.......... Everytime they ask, I would change the topic. That was one of the saddest part in my life.

Since that day, I told myself that nobody can change me, unless myself. I started to list all my weaknesses & strength, what are the obstacles for me that hinder me from getting flying color result, what are the best way of learning for me. At first, here, I thought that the way I learn is just the same like everybody else. However, once I enter medical school I realized that each one of us has our own way of learning. As a result, and thank you to Allah, my family & the strength they gave to me, I got A during final examination. Plus, I am so proud for everyone (the whole batch & to anyone who had been the same situation exactly like us). It was 150 topics approximately during finals & we did it!

"It doesnt matter where you are coming from. All that matters is where you are going" - Brian Tracy

The things that keep lingering in my mind everytime I have to go for a meeting during test week :p

Yay! Alhamdulillah for everything & right now I am in semester 2. I just done answering respiratory test & yeah about 1 month and a half to sit for another finals. 

My advice to anyone who wanted to become a medical student is once you are in here, everything is going to be change. Your life will not be the same. However, if you got your passion with you, no matter how tough the road is, nobody is going to stop you. 

I once told myself that medical school wont change a bit of my life. Little did I know, this is my life. (at first, it is hard to embrace this :') hahahhahah)

So, here are a few programs that I involved; (there are some more, but I dont have the picture in my phone)

This is not a program. My housemates were celebrating my birthday. They surprised me :'))

Exco Akademik, MESTA

We won first place during Family Day!!

JPK FAMILY!!

BAKTI SISWA : A programme under Exco Kerohanian, MESTA where we go to a village & do some activities here. We do health screening, sukaneka with orang kampung, gotong-royong, etc. One of the best thing about this programme is each one of us will be sent to family angkat! Exciting, right? 

TOBACCO RUN : A program under Free Tobacco Club where the purpose of this programme to create awareness about how dangerous tobacco is to our health. We went to UiTM Puncak Alam. This program was not just held for students, but it was opened to other people too. 

KKUS (Konvensyen Kesihatan UiTM Selangor): A program under combination of all association in UiTM Sungai Buloh. The aim is to create awareness about kanak-kanak istimewa. Very inspiring program! This program touched my heart :')

Medical Olympiad: A program under Exco Akademik, MESTA. The aim of this program is as a preparation for year 2 since they are going to sit for their pro's. A program where I was given the opportunity to be a pengarah program. I learnt a lot here. We were mainly year 1 & I am really proud of our team

DINNER YEAR 5: The most recent program I involved. My first time of being floor manager. OMG! I learnt a lot hereeeeeee&I really enjoy my work as floor manager 

Me during sem 1! 

I never thought that I belong here. It has been 10 months & I have learnt a lot. Who would have thought that I would join any program? To be one of the members to held a program? Everything that happen here is incredible. Day by day, faculty of medicine has changed me, the way I think & all. Yeah that is what happening right now. Indeed, He is a the best planner. 

Anyone who has any enquiries regarding Faculty Of Medicine, UiTM or anything, can email me yaaa :)) 

Thank you!

Recapitulation

Hai and assalamualaikum,

So here is me saying sorry for not updating the interview of upm since i had been so busy in the past few months because i wanted to spend more time with myself and relax from everything that was messing up with my head and now i am here all new and free, like those balloons ;) But hey, if you guys have any enquiries regarding to the interview of faculty of medicine, upm you guys can hit me up at sabrinashekhahmad@gmail.com !! ♥♥

I once prayed that i wanted this break to be the most meaningful holiday in my life since its five months & long & i successfully had waste the previous holidays (cuti spm & first sem break) with great laziness & useless activities. Indeed, He is the best planner. Something happened to me and it totally changed me 360 degrees. 

It was a week full of confusion & exhaustion with everything in this world. My mental, emotion & physical were weary with people & myself. I still remember how I woke up every morning. I felt useless, dumb, confused & I would say I was completely lost. That moment, I told myself "This is not you, sabrina. This is not you". I just realized one of my biggest fear is to lose myself and it was freaking scary than any horror movies I have ever watched in my entire life. 

I still remember how I pick up every pieces of myself quietly without telling anyone & i tell you guys, that moment i realized i was one of the strongest woman in world. Everyday, every morning, every single time, I would wear my smiles to hide the scars beneath my body. There is a proverb saying that "A friend in need is a friend indeed". Yeah, that moment is the moment where I found the truest friend of mine. I am beyond grateful to have them. 

One of the most quintessential things I have learned from what I had been through is; in the end of the day, you just have yourself. I remember telling myself; you have allowed yourself to get until this point, suffer through it, feel the pain. Once you have done, wake up & never look back again. I never thought I could have the strength to do all these things and for that I thank Allah. 

"The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative experience.And paradoxically, the acceptance of one's negative experience is itself a positive experience"

- The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck 

June 2018

1) Journal

I started to install an application that called as "Day One". Seriously, journal is the best platform where I often pour my heart out. It was such a relief.

2) I bought a fiction book!

Honestly, fiction book is not my cup of tea. However, as long as it involves reading, I would just grab it and read it out loud. 

3) UNINSTALL SOCIAL MEDIA

Masyaallah people, I pun terkejut! Basically, the idea of this popped in my mind once I watch one of the recommendation videos on youtube. Surprisingly, uninstalling social media was one of the best decision I have ever made. You guys should try. I found myself to live more in presence, appreciate all the moments & people in my life.

July 2018 

1)  Discover a website

Thank god, this website is really helpful. http://www.planetofsuccess.com . I often read quotes of happiness, success from this website. I found it is hard to meet the movies that is compatible with my taste, but one of the reasons I love about this website is TADAAAAAAA there is a section of inspirational movies recommendation. If you guys love based on a true story movie, or biography you guys should try! http://www.planetofsuccess.com/blog/2016/top-inspirational-movies/

2) Watching inspirational movies

I swear watching inspirational movies is one of the ways I escape the world. By doing this, I started to gain and build a new perspective. Once you have watched, you will get wired! Like me, hehe. Here is a fact; I had to watch at least one inspirational movie a week. It really changed my life. 

3) INSTALL SOCIAL MEDIA AGAIN

Gosh, I swear this didnt help me a thing but make myself to be even worst. For that, I want to raise my hand up as the one who should be blamed for this silly decision I made. I just realized all these times, social media was one of the major reason of my unhappinesss in life. So, uninstall it again hehe. 

4) Reading a non-fiction book

The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck was my first non-fiction book and it was really good & funny. I started to realize what problems I should care about or simply just dont give a f about that. And and and yeah, I started to stop expecting anything from people. 

5) Watching motivational videos 

I started to subscribe some of the vloggers where I found they are inspiring. The first vlogger I subscribed was John Fish. One of the things I love about him is he is smart andddddd he really loves to read books. I read TSAONGAF at the instance I watched his video. 

Team Fearless & Fearless Soul . Both are my favourite. I watched at least one video from them every single morning and i could feel it changed my morning and the most important thing, my life! 

Btw, I love to listen to TEDx Talks everytime I wanna eat my lunch or dinner.

6) Doing thing that I love

Got the chance to perform again in school hahahha & it was exciting! I also join to help krs in kawad & it feels good to be back again. Our team got the first place (putera) in daerah & second place (puteri) while for negeri the boys got the third place while we girls got fifth. alhamdulillah

August 2018

1) Forgiveness

I told you guys, this is one of the hardest thing I had to do. Easy to write, easier to say, but bitter to do. It required me sheer strength of myself to do it. As a matter of fact, I learned that whenever we face a problem, the very first thing we have and wajib to do is to forgive ourselves & forgive people (even they didnt even say sorry to you). 

"Forgiving isnt something you do for someone else. Its something you do for yourself. Its saying, youre not important to have a strangehold on me. Its saying you dont get to trap me in the past. I am worthy of a future"

- Storyteller by Jodi Picoult 

2) GOALS

Setting goals every week is a super new for me but guess what? It makes my week to be more meaningful, full of purpose. One of the reasons I wake up excited every day in the morning!! 

3) Deactivate my social media

I found myself happier than ever since I uninstall them. So, to pursue the happiness more, I just deactivated them. Simply because I do not need them. No, not anymore.

I have always believed that Allah is the best planner. All these paths I took step by step I sometimes asked Allah like "why me?". I even feel like giving up, lying on my bed, feeling nothing (ok macam lagu shawn mendes). Little did I know, He has something for me. A gift.

Finally, alhamdulillah! The upu result eventually came out and yeah I was accepted to pursue my degree in faculty of medicine, uitm! I feel like crying already imagining what I had been through for all these times. It was a sweet time grieving, indeed.

"You are not what happened to you. You are what you choose to become after what happened to you" 

- Selena Gomez 

As you could see, I kind of obsessed with quotes, and yes I am really obsessed with them hahahahaha! 

For those out there, who are floundering with anything, please do not give up. It does not matter how much you fall. What matters is you get back up again. Get back up stronger! 

Wish me luck for my medical school that I am gonna attend in 2 weeks from now! ♥ 

hehehhe haaaaiiii :D 

Interview Faculty Of Dentistry, UITM

Hai & assalamualaikum,

About 2 weeks ago, I was called by UITM to go to an interview for faculty of dentistry. So, basically this post is going to be about how do I prepare myself before I attend the interview :)

So, firstly when I received the letter (on the Internet), I carefully read all the instructions that were given on the letter so that I will not miss a thing. This is hella important before I prepare myself. The very first step I took was I make sure all the document that I have to bring on that day is completely ready (macam ic, surat beranak parents and all). But, people please do not bring your parents' original IC with you guys hahahhahaha kesian parents you kalau jadi apa2. Just bring the salinan.

Next, I opened the website of faculty of dentistry, UITM & studied a bit about the course. I was kinda lost hahahah seriously I know nothing about dentistry. I put dentistry as my fourth option. I really have no idea why did they still pick me (but, alhamdulillah). 

Realizing tons of problem that I have to face, I decided to contact this abang who once give a talk in UITM Dengkil about entering this faculty. Thanks to this abang, he really guide me since the first day I ask, until I finish the interview!

To make things short, this interview has 2 sections. 

First section: 

Kena buat origami pigeon (for 2018) but before ni ada juga batch kena buat wire bending. Tak tahu wire bending? Boleh search youtube. Origami pun sama

Second section:

THE CRUCIAL PART HAHAHHAHAHA INTERVIEW! Firstly, dont get nervous! Keep calm & relax. The must-ask (popular) questions:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF 

Explain about yourself. At this point, the interview just want to know what you can do. Based from this abang I asked, he told me to tell what talent we got. Contoh talent: pandai main gitar, menyanyi, menari, photography, and all. Then, tell them based on these hobbies, what you learn, then relate kan dengan dentistry.

WHY DO YOU CHOOSE DENTISTRY?

WHY DO YOU CHOOSE UITM?

I do a little research about faculty of dentistry, UITM. Little did I know that actually, this faculty is the biggest dental school in our country, Malaysia. So here is the article based on the website of Astro Awani. HERE 

WHY WE SHOULD CHOOSE YOU?

This part korang dah boleh angkat diri korang seatas-atasnya. Seumpama korang dilahirkan dalam dunia ni memang untuk jadi dentist! Here is one of the videos I used to refer how to answer this question. VIDEO. This video is for a job interview, but the important thing is we know how to construct the sentence. 

DALAM BAHASA MELAYU, CERITAKAN TENTANG ISU SEMASA

I still remember when I heard this question, I was like HAHAHAHHA AKU BACA NEWS DALAM ENGLISH. However, alhamdulillah even cuak, otak ni time tu juga ubah dalam bahasa Melayu hahahaha. Punya berpeluh.

TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT DENTISTRY

Basically for this question, I told them about all the unit in dentistry. HERE. I pick one of those units that I am more interested to, and tell them the details. Why am I more interested to that unit.... 

Okay last, lupa macam mana dia punya soalan, tapi lebih kurang macam ni:

SO SABRINA LET SAY LEPAS HABIS BELAJAR STILL TAK DAPAT TAWARAN JADI DENTIST, HOW WOULD YOU SURVIVE?

Okay, thats all about the interview section. 

Tips for the interview:

1) Masuk jangan lupa bagi salam, greet them properly. I usually ask them permission before sit

2) RELAX. ( I used to listen to my favourite song before I enter an interview to reduce my nervousness)

3) BE YOURSELF, Be Confident. 

4) Smile :D 

Okay, good luck everyone! All the best ♥ 

An exquisite view from top !! 

ME AND MY NEGATIVE SLOPE TUDUNG :')

TOLD YAA HE LOVES TO FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE!

HEHEHEHE GOT IT FROM DENGKIL 

My new friend, Farah!! ♥

P/S: I just went another interview at Universiti Putra Malaysia, UPM for Faculty of Medicine recently. Gonna update about it soon too. Stay tuned!